One day I'll have a tiny baby girl and when she's born she'll scream and I'll tell her never to stop. I will kiss her before I lay her down at night and will tell her a story so she knows how it is and how it must be for her to survive. I'll tell her to set things on fire and keep them burning. I'll teach her that fire will not consume her, that she must use it. I'll tell her that people must earn the right to use her nickname, that forced intimacy is an ugly thing. I'll help her to see that she will not find God or salvation in a dark brick building built by dead men. I'll make sure she always carries a pen so she can take down the evidence. If she has no paper, I'll teach her to write everything down with her tongue, write it on her thighs. I'll make her keep reinventing herself and run fast. I'll teach her to write her manifestos on cocktail napkins. I'll say she should make men lick her ambition. I'll make her understand that she is worth more with her clothes on. I'll teach her to talk hard. I'll tell her that when the words come too fast and she has no use for a pen that she must quit her job run out of the house in her bathrobe, leave the door open. I'll teach her to follow the words. They will try to make her stay, comfort her, let her sleep, bathe her in a television glow. I will cut her hair, tell her to light the house on fire, kill the kittens, when nothing is there nothing will keep her and she is not to be kept. I'll say that everything she has done seen spoken has brought her to the here this now. This is no time for tenderness, no time to stand, waiting for them to find her. There are nations within her skin. Queendoms come without keys you can carry. I'll teach her that she has an army inside her that can save her life. I'll teach her to be whole, to be holy. I'll teach her how to live, to be so much that she doesn't even need me anymore. I'll tell her to go quickly and never come back. Things get broken fast here. I will make her stronger then I ever was. Turned at twenty she'll break into bits of star and throw herself against the sky. I will not let them destroy her life the way they destroyed mine. Never forget what they did to you and never let them know you remember. Never forget what they did to you and never let them know you remember.